Not fair!

It's nothing new but life can be unfair at times, especially when we don't get our way!  I'm finding myself sad and bitter about a lot of things that are happening at work that seem so unfair.  I know it is because there are people who think they are protecting me, like one of my surgeons who will not allow me to scrub into any cases in the OR--he sought my Medical Oncologist to talk to me about staying out of the OR!!  How about being stuck in the office day after day after day for weeks feeling isolated from the rest of the world at times.  And I don't know why I agreed to take call every 3 weeks because that's when I feel my best--why was I so stupid?!

I guess a lot of this has been bothering me for a while but it just never made me feel as depressed as today.  This morning was the first time I actually didn't want to go to work, I didn't even feel this way on the days I felt worse after treatment.  I wish there were things that could be different at work, it always sucks when you can't have your way.  I guess I should feel some comfort in knowing that this is temporary and this too shall pass but it still doesn't change the fact that it sucks.