Big sigh!

Sometimes, no matter how hard you try you cannot control your emotions and it never fails that those moments are the ones you will always regret.  And why is it so easy to lash out at your family; the ones that you are supposed to love the most and care about the most are always the ones to bear the brunt of all negative emotions?  I was obviously still very upset about things that came up over the weekend between my sisters and myself and I should have known better than to bring them up again knowing I was still emotional when one of my sisters called to check on me; I told myself I would be calm and try to explain things clearly so that there would be no misunderstanding but I'm sure after reading from the top of tonight's entry you can only imagine what transpired.  I should have just ended the initial telephone call with "work was fine, talk to you later;" but no, I had to bring up this past weekend--bad idea, like I said I knew deep down inside I was still emotionally charged and should have waited a couple of more days to think things through completely and have a clearer and more concise explanation of what was going through my head--um yeah, not so much.  I didn't think I had raised my voice or sounded upset, but according to a witness, I was yelling--really?  That was not my intention, I seriously was trying the best I could (at that moment) to be honest and open without coming off as being confrontational.  Well, we all know...the best laid plans of mice and men...