A new low.

I've definitely reached a new low.  Today was the first day I called out and didn't make it into work, and I'm not so sure how I'll feel tomorrow--it's very disappointing to me because I took so much pride in being able to work through my treatments; even if it wasn't for very long, I had always made it in.

I truly feel like s%@#!!  I am bloated and feel like a balloon; I don't know what's worse, the on going fatigue and exhaustion while feeling like my head is in a cloud or the constant horrible taste in my mouth that aggravates the irritation in my stomach because it limits what I want to eat and drink although I do it very often!  I get tired just getting up to get something to drink.  I'm exhausted trying to sit up and type this!

I'm feeling so down and defeated right now, just want to cry!!!!:'(  It doesn't mean I've given up, I'm just being honest about how I feel.  I know this is temporary and I'll get through it but I'm just telling you how I feel--like S%@#!!  I can't wait until I can say I'm on the upswing again.  I want to feel energetic and like myself again, able to appreciate cold water and a cup of coffee!