Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Waiting to feel normal again...

Another blah day!  I'm proud to say I made it into work although I woke up feeling like I couldn't possibly get up and get dressed.  I thought I did pretty well, saw as many patients as I could in morning clinic; although by 11:30 I was ready to fall out.  Was lucky that we had a lunch brought in by a drug rep and all I had to do was fix a plate--I literally inhaled my lunch and went back to work.  I lasted all afternoon and got home after a full day of work.  I just wish I felt even just 25% of my normal self.  I don't want to be a complainer but I really hate the way I feel right now.  With that said, I know I've said before that it could be worse so I really shouldn't complain!!!  AHHHH!!!!  Now that I've gotten that out...

I actually do feel better.  I don't know where or how but I got my second wind after I got home from work and finally unpacked from my trip to Alabama and then did some laundry!  This is huge considering how bad I felt just a couple of hours earlier.  I would be extremely happy feeling like I am now from now until my next treatment, although I am human and I tend to be selfish and always want more--so, yes that means I would want to feel better than this for some time before my next treatment.

People keep telling me I'll get used to my "new normal" but I keep wondering when that will happen because it sure hasn't happened yet!

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