Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Hair, hair and more hair!

So, I guess I'll be losing more and more hair every day.  The amount I collected in the shower and off the floor after drying my hair was unbelievable to me this morning.  I don't think I'll make it to the end of the week without having to hide my bare scalp.  I have quite a bald spot on the very top of my head right now!

I really thought I was prepared to lose my hair but looking at my hair in my hands and seeing a huge area of bare scalp were very hard to swallow today.  I actually found myself shedding a tear this afternoon because I was sincerely sad.  I know this is a temporary loss and I will have my own hair back soon but the reality of the whole situation became clear to me again.

I had myself a tiny pity-fest and shared a half bottle of wine with Megan and thought I would feel better. The wine has just made me more emotional.  I know this is not the end of the world but there are still moments, although very few and short lived, that I wonder why.  I know it's useless to ask why and especially now but I hope you'll let me have my moment--no need to console me because like I said before this will be short lived.

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