Even though I know the worst is behind me, I remain emotionless. I don't know if it's because I'm still somewhat fatigued and tired or if it hasn't hit me completely because the fire in my stomach is only now beginning to smolder and I'm not near being 100% yet. I am definitely better than just even 2 days ago but like I said, I am not as joyous as I thought I would be once I started feeling better.
I still feel like I have a long way to go, although I'm pretty sure radiation will be a walk in the park compared to chemo. I am becoming very impatient with time; all I want is for this whole ordeal to be over and in my past. I want to fast forward to the future when I will have my own hair, my nails will be normal again, the neuropathy in my feet no longer exists and I can truly taste again--when I can say I am a breast cancer survivor! I'm sure we've all realized that as we get older, time flies; it's not flying past me fast enough right now. I don't want to have any regrets but all I wish for at this moment is to warp to next year!
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